We sang a song Sunday night that has a line in it that is so powerful but yet so easy to sing over without counting the cost of the words we are singing. The lyrics say “bring me to the end of myself, take me to the edge of something greater.” (Frontiers) Sunday morning when I was reading in a devotional I am going through a quote from A.W. Tozer was mention, here is what it said:
“The reason why many are still troubled, still seeking, still making little forward progress is because they haven’t yet come to the end of themselves. We’re still trying to give orders, and interfering with God’s work within us.”
I knew the Lord was speaking to me. Immediately. I knew that He was asking me to fully surrender. The only words I could utter out of my mouth after reading this were “Jesus, I fully surrender to You.” Over, and over and over.
After going through a really hard year full of change, disappointments, why me’s, questioning God, asking when, it all caved in a brought me here… to what I am praying, will be the end of myself. It brought me to the question of “Am I willing to give it all up?” The dreams, my future that I have planned out in my head, the way I think it is supposed to be, how I think it is supposed to go… am I willing to fully surrender to the Lord, come to the end of myself, stop seeking what I think should be and fully seek Him and let Him complete what He started.. just like His word promises He will. (Philippians 1:6)
What you are seeking, chasing, dreaming up may be wonderful things, God honoring things! Things that you are so passionate about and possibly things God has even called and created you to do. But if we don’t come to the end of ourselves and give up our agenda and plans we will make little forward progress.
Maybe you are like me. Maybe you were told that you can do anything and be anything and dream big and that God has called you to great things and you will do them! But yet here you are in the normal, ordinary, everyday life wondering if it was all a lie. But maybe we just weren’t going about it the right way….. What if we came to the end of ourselves and in this normal everyday life realized that it is a gift from the Lord. What if the only thing we chased after was Him. What if we took the standards of the world and expectations of others off of our shoulders and just let ourselves be who He made us and enjoy everything He made for us. What if we stopped thinking about ourselves and just freely gave our life away to others.
What if we truly come to the end of ourselves and meet Him there and allow Him to refresh us and restore us like only He can. We let Him use us and lead us like it was really meant to be all along. This year I want to wake up every morning and have the first words out of my mouth be “Jesus, I fully surrender to You.” This year I want to stop thinking about myself in every decision I make. This year I want to give my life away to others. This year I want to live fully surrendered to the One who made me and live daily at the end of myself where He will be waiting. This year I want to take off the weights of pressure, standards and expectations of others and this world and live with my eyes on Him.
When I first asked myself if I could give it all up I honestly couldn’t even imagine what that would look like because I have lived so focused on my plans and dreams for so long. But when I considered what life could be like at the end of myself, fully surrendered to Him I made a decision that I didn’t want to let one more year pass living any other way. Maybe you find yourself wanting to live at this place today as well and if you don’t know where to start just simply start by saying “Jesus, I fully surrender to You” and let’s see together what life could be like at the end of ourselves.