Life is hard sometimes isn’t it? Sometimes life can be full of disappointments. Sometimes it can be full of hurt. Sometimes it can be full of why’s or why not’s. Sometimes I even feel as if God has just turned away and forgotten about me. Have you ever felt that way?
As I laid awake in bed last night I just couldn’t hold in the tears and the hurt any longer. I am a bottler upper (is that a thing??) I like to hold all of my feelings in until they explode. Super healthy I know.. I am working on it.
The questions. The dreams that are gone. The plans I thought would happen and didn’t or haven’t yet. The story of what I thought my life would be. The pain that comes with watching others live out that story that I so badly want to be my own… The disappoints, the feelings of failure and worthlessness… sometimes they all just come out and explode. But in the midst of these moments the God that felt so far away is ever so near.
In His kindness and mercy He chose to speak louder than my thoughts and feelings. In the midst of my questions and doubts His love was greater and steady. In the midst of my tears He chose to speak words of comfort, because that is who He is. Here is what I heard Him speak so clearly to my heart…
That is not your story…I am still writing your story and I am not finished with it yet.
Peace. Peace that is greater than all understanding. Because in my limited understanding there was still hurt, but when He spoke those words to my heart the Peace was greater.
I don’t know what you may be going through today, or this season of your life. Whether you are on a mountain top or down in the valley, know that your story isn’t finished yet. Know that His plans are greater than any that we can think of for ourselves. Know that everyday is a new page to your story. Some pages are harder than others… some chapters are longer than others, but the Author of the story is the same on the mountain as He is in the valley. Let His peace be louder than your understanding.
Here are some verses that bring comfort to my heart and season and I pray they do the same for you as well:
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit away from me. Restore to me the JOY of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me. – Psalm 51:10-12 NIV
The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; He delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. –Psalm 34:17-18 NIV
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. –Psalm 23 NIV
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
I call on you, my God, for you will answer me; turn your ear to me and hear my prayer. –Psalm 17:6 NIV
God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. – Ephesians 2:20 MSG